Tuesday, November 22, 2011

We Give a "hoot" about adoption

For National Adoption Month The Harrisville Birth Mother group put together a christmas tree to be auctioned off to raise money for a local school district.
The event opened today and we are so excited to say the tree has already sold! We are so proud of our little tree!

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

I am walking 4....

Alright so I didn't even get to walk! WE had so much going on that day I could only be there for 2 hours! But I still was able to meet wonderful people who care about adoption! I was so cold but so worth it to see so many people come out and support adoption!
I loved seeing adoptive mothers talk to thier kids about the birth mothers name that was on thier back. Its so wonderful that they adoptive couples and Birth parents can come together and celebrate the life of a child!

I love adoption!

 Bryce  I love you!

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Happy National Adoption Month!

The R House has Challenged blogger's to blog about adoption this month! I have decided to take this challenge although I can promise I will miss a few days here and there! I promise to better about blogging for adoption! 
So Here Goes!
I hope you all can make it to this wonderful event! I am so excited to be able to go this year!
Hope to see you all there!

Tuesday, September 27, 2011


Before I start let me just say this.... I understand Glee is a show for ratings and totally understand that FOX doesn't really care about what the adoption world thinks about their story plot.

However I must say how sorry I am that they were not able to show the amazing power and love adoption  can bring. to someones life.
I am a huge choir nerd I love choir and so 3 years ago when I heard about it glee I was SO excited! I love the music they do its amazing!  The first year the head cheerleader Quinn became pregnant and decided to place her little girl for adoption... However the makers of Glee don't feel that place is the right word they choose to use give up. They also have made points that birth mothers don't want or love the child that was placed. and they have also show how placing a child for adoption can ruin your life...

I am so sad that the chance Fox had to teach those who watch this show about the blessing of adoption has been lost in showing the horrible side of adoption. This is my opinion others can have their own.
Let me just say this.. i didn't give Bryce up... I placed him in the arms of a loving couple who will help him grow ti be a better man... I love Bryce and I placed him out of love, I did not place him because i did not want him... I placed him because he needed and deserved more then I could give.... Birth mothers aren't evil people who make a sudden choice and regret it for the rest of their lives adoption is not an impulse decision its something that takes alot of guts to do its something that seriously tears your heart out.... I will always love my sweet little Bryce but that little part of me that cries over him not being with me rejoices in seeing him be with the two people I trusted enough to place him with and watching him grow and talk and laugh and learn. I love tell the world that I am a Birth Mother and here is why!
So Fox... I hope you know your are wrong and adoption is a wonderful blessing!

Friday, August 26, 2011


You know the feeling when things just aren't going your way... like this black cloud of misery is just following you around? I am not saying like having a bad day I mean like having a bad week, month or months maybe even year? Ya I have had those...
You worry what more could possible go wrong and just when you think you hit the bottom it just keeps on coming!
I have had my moments where I blamed alot of people.. then I blamed myself and well that didn't turn out so well for me... But after my pregnancy with Bryce and after i placed I thought okay life is going to get better now..
I love the story Cinderella and I love happy endings! I found my Prince Charming, my Mr. Darcy, it was my turn for a happily ever after. Right?
Wrong! So wrong... I would like to think that after me and Kyle got married we would have no problems life would just be easy.
Well I was wrong life is never easy I found.... In my mind the lord had tested me enough and it was time for a break time for life to slow down.
When I was at the end of my pregnancy with Bryce I was very very sick... I was in so much pain and I had heart burn with everything they couldn't figure out what was wrong. After I had Bryce things got better I felt better but my heart burn never went away I was drinking bottles of Malox and Mylanta like they were kool-aid. Luckily I found a great job at a medical clinic and I had good insurance and they paid for some of my medical bills if I went to that clinic. So I decided to try going to a heartburn Doctor... however i still feared men so i went to a mid-level since it was a girl so we tried every type of heartburn pill and found I was allergic to all of them... awesome...
Then I finally went to see the Male Doctor there who was an actual M.D.  He thought the heartburn surgery they do would fix my little problem but just decided to do a C.T. scan just to make sure everything was good...
4 hours after my scan I got a call... I knew something was wrong because they said they would tell me my results in 2 days.... Not 4 hours... My Doctor told me they found two lesions on my liver and I needed an emergency MRI.... The next morning I got the MRI done and went back to work thinking it would be a few days to read that on at least... 3 hours later I was making an appointment with a local hospital to have a biopsy done on one of the tumors they had found on my liver...
I was very upset for awhile I  remember thinking "Really heavenly father really? haven't I done enough haven't I shown enough strength for one year?"
Then after anger I blamed my self again thinking this must be a punishment for making so many mistakes in my life this must be payback for me not living the life I should have.... Then I was terrified about what would happen next and how me and Kyle would handle it...
At the Hospital the next day 6 hours of waiting and about an hour of laying on a table being poked with needles they gave up all hope of a biopsy and decided Huntsman Cancer Center was the best place for me... The tumor was to close to all my vital organs for them to try the Biopsy...
So 2 weeks later we were off to the Cancer center.. and suddenly all thoughts about why me and how come left..... walking through the halls holding hand with my husband I was humbled beyond words... I watched families holding children who were battle cancer... I watch husbands and wives doing puzzles together in the halls one with an iv in their hand and no hair on their head.. I watched families in the waiting room terrified of what was next.... Suddenly I felt thankful.. I was so thankful I wasn't waiting to hear about my child or about my husband I was thankful it was me and no one else I was thankful that I had been blessed to have a smaller trial then those around me.
2 months later I went back to the cancer center to have my tumor removed thankful it was not cancerous and the other tumor is to small to worry about so I never have to go back (knock on wood)
But from April to September I though my life could not get any worse.... I was upset and angry and hurt...
But I learned so much now I find I am so thankful for the chance I had to do experience all of those things...

Some days we just are so overloaded that we ask why... but I can tell you after a few months or even a year you will see why and you might even be thankful for the trial placed before you! Some things I do hope you do when your hit with the rainstorm over your head that seems it will never end is 1. remember you are not alone. 2. Never blame your self know that its part of life some times bad things happen to good people 3. pull out your umbrella and just smile because you are loved

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Guest Blogging

This weekend Birthmothers for Adoption was asking for guest bloggers so I thought why not! I have never done it before but here goes nothing! So head on over and check it out! Birthmothers for adoption!

Sunday, August 21, 2011

Self Esteem Part 2

Be YOU! Be who you want to be no who others want you to be!
I think this is something everyone has struggled with once in their life is being someone others want them to be either so you can fit in or just be liked more… But you are never really happy in life until you find out who you are and you can never do that unless you are honest with yourself and others!
  Live according to a personal value system

What do you stand for… do you want people to know you for Honesty? Loyalty? Kind to others? Sit down and write down who you want to be what you want to stand for what you want to think of yourself…
  Set healthy boundaries with relationships. ALL relationships
Learn how to set boundaries learn what space you need… This can be a hard thing to do but in the long run it is worth it… we have not only the right, but the duty to take responsibility for how we allow others to treat us
  Accept responsibility for yourself, your thoughts and actions.
Be proud of what you do… if you make mistakes be proud that you can learn from them... For along time I was so afraid to tell people about Bryce and about me being a birth mother, I feel awful for even thinking that way now.. I am so grateful for all the blessings I have in my life and alot of them I wouldn't have if I hadn't made the choices I had. Bryce is someone to celebrate not to hide!
  Give back, help others
A wonderful way to make you feel good and others feel good is to help them; just smiling at someone can make your day a little bit better… There are thousands of ways to help others in this world find one that fits you I can guarantee your days will be brighter when you help others I love being able to help other birth mothers