My Name is Katy VanderDoes and I placed a baby boy for adoption in August of 2008. To this day I am so grateful for the option I had to choose adoption; I know that my son Bryce is with a wonderful family who loves him. Not only are they the adoptive couple but the Dwelle’s to me are my great friends and to me they are just like family.
Around the time I became pregnant I was at my lowest of low, after being in an abusive relationship for 9 months and suffering in the end every type of abuse I felt used broken and alone. I didn’t tell many people what had happened it took me a year or so to tell my parents. Instead of venting to others I decided to deal with it myself, and my way of dealing with it was setting goals I knew I could not reach. I demanded perfection from myself each and every day. When I finally hit rock bottom I weighed around 88 pounds and was severely depressed. However on the outside and to others I just looked like an extremely skinny happy 18 year old. On the night that I say I was the worst I had just found out my boyfriend had cheated on me and I was so upset I went to a co-workers house some where I knew I shouldn’t have been. In the end that night I made a choice that would not only change my life forever but it would change the life of a beautiful son of God. I went home and I was so upset about what I had done I prayed to my heavenly father and asked him for help. I asked for the strength to get me through the horrible mess I had gotten myself into. That is when I knew I had to change I knew that I needed to find myself and I knew I needed to let go of the things that were holding me down.
The next 5 months I started eating better found a better job; let myself make mistakes without beating myself up of them. I found joy in baking for others and did things that made not only me happy but others happy too. I grew closer to my parents and to my loving heavenly father. I wrote a missionary that had been writing me faithfully for a year and a half, I couldn’t be happier. I was on the right track, it wasn’t until I had finally hit the 100 pound mark that I knew something was wrong I knew that the mistake I made 5 months back had not only affected me but it affected a sweet innocent baby.
I came home and I could have let the new that I was pregnant change me I could have gone back to my old ways at some point I know that I wanted to I know that I was so upset with myself for hurting the people I loved and even more so for hurting this little boy I was now carrying. But the wonderful missionary and my wonderful parents helped save me from my self. They helped me realize that I was a beautiful daughter of my heavenly father, and they supported me in my choice for adoption.
Adoption is not the end of the world; it is a wonderful beginning to so many things. A chance to become friends with the adoptive couple, I know that knowing the Dwelle’s has brought so much joy to my life I am so grateful for the chance that I have had to get to know them better. When I hear from them I am not just excited about pictures of Bryce but I am excited to hear how they are and what is going on in their lives. It is new beginning for you; my outlook on life is so different now that I have placed Bryce I find I am grateful for the small things not just the big things. After placement I was able to get married to my Missionary (Kyle), our life has not been easy in the 2 ½ years of marriage we have gone through a lot but I don’t let those things get me down.
I know I am not perfect I know that I have my day where I struggle with myself but, all I have to remember is my heavenly father loves me and step by step I remember how wonderful I can be and how everyone on this earth is a son or daughter of God and the deserve to be treated as one.
6 Random things about me!
1. I have a thing about feet... I Hate them I hate when people touch mine I hate touching other peoples its a huge fear I dunno why but Kyle finds it so funny he thinks its a game....
2. I love to cook.... When I am stressed I cook when others are stressed I cook when I am happy I cook.. I will find almost any occasion to bake... But if something bad just happened anyone around me can be expecting way too many goodies....
3. I have a thing for Pumpkin I love it! Pumpkin pie, pumpkin bread..... I even made pumpkin pancakes last year oh man they were amazing! But the best thing is pumpkin ice cream!
4. I have an even bigger thing for polka dots! I love them! They are even going to be part of my wedding! (they are on my dress its so cool!)
5. I love boxes or anything I can try and fit into really.... I love seeing if I fit and then taking pictures.... Or I love hiding in big boxes and popping out when ever someone walks by.... I have fun with things like that!
6. I always get over excited when I have something I am looking forward too... example: the funnel cake for the fair I was so excited to get a funnel cake I was jumping up and down and no one could get the smile off my little face....
