What do you do?

As crazy as it sounds a girl who didn't eat that much... I love to cook I have always loved to cook... some friends from high school would laugh because I made them the worst tasting box macaroni in the world one day... I most of the time made some good food... after High School I went to culinary arts classes at the ATC by my parents house... I fell in love with baking and experimenting with food... I had alot of comments on never trust a skinny chef.. and honestly I tasted my food but I made it for others that's what I enjoyed I am not sure if I did it because a little part of me loved hearing the things people would say about my cooking or if I just like the thought of me being semi okay at something....
Now I am not saying I am the worlds best chef... I am just saying it was my outlet it was my me time.. In alot of ways it still is my me time... I love having friends over and making a meal I love cooking for others... When I placed Bryce I cooked alot before and after placement before I had my son Benjamin when ever I had a bad day at work or I just was so stressed I baked.
the March after I placed Bryce I had been very sick and finally the Doctors were able to discover a huge medical issue from march until September of that year I was so stressed and upset I baked a lot! there was always a goodies at my house for anyone who came over!

So I decided to add a cooking blog there will be a link up at the top!

But now the tables have turned what do you do for yourself? What is you "ME" time what helps you calm down and unwind after a tough day?

Are you a Brave Girl?

Let me let you in on one of my favorite sites in the whole wide world! Its called the Brave Girls club! I love it! I was introduced to it a few months ago when I started attended a birth mother group. I love their blog posts and I absolutely love the daily truths? Why do you ask... Because I am such a firm believer in the fact that each one of us is amazing and special and loved.... But sadly from time to time we all forget that or things happen that just make us feel plain awful... and some times it hurts to be happy...
Well Every morning I wake up to these daily truths and they just put a smile on my face what a way to start a day! I suggest you all go here now and sign up...
Here is so far my favorite one

And Link this story with this blog post from them here


I love it I think so many times we lose sight of the bigger picture focusing on something that hurts us  but it doesn't just hurt us it ends up controlling us and  making us lose sight of the things that are important and its hard to let the pain got and look at the beauty around us. I know so many times I take my trail and make it my life instead of take my trail and make it work around my life... Trials make us who we are they make us stronger but I know I tend to shut people and the world out when I am hurting how amazing would it be if I let people help me and in turn help others!

I love the Brave girls club... I hope you all sign up for the daily truth so you can all start your day off with a smile know how amazing and wonderful you are!

FSA Conference! Are you Going?

Hey Everyone Just a Reminder to sign up for this years FSA conference!
I am So excited its my first one! And I am Presenting and My hubby is on a panel!

Register to come here!

Its going to be wonderful!

Life after Placement

The day of placement was a day I will never forget it will always be a part of me, the night I came home it was opening night of the Summer Olympics I sat and watched that which kept my mind off of the thoughts and feelings I was having... But then it was time for bed... I remember going down to my room thinking I would just fall asleep... But sleep never came tears came and I could stop them I cried and cried.. I didn't want my family to see me I just wanted to stay down in my room forever... but sadly I really needed to go to the bathroom (TMI?) I went up stairs and tried to hide my face from my family and failed... My dad saw me and brought me over to his huge rocking chair and held me and rocked me until I was able to calm down.
Looking back on that night I am so thankful to have such wonderful parents who were strong enough to help me through that time... I know that day wasn't easy for them either but they stood by me and supported me through it all!

Grieving is an important part of the adoption process... it helps us heal and it helps us to move forward with our lives. It is so important to have a good cry and to let your feelings out... write it down or talk to someone you trust about how you are feeling.

Bryce will always be a huge part of my life I love him so much, however he is not all of my life... the first week after placement I remember always checking my e-mail I was obsessed with my e-mail I couldn't wait to hear about Bryce and what he was doing... after that first week I realized that my while life can't revolve around my inbox.. I have to move on.. I need to move on....
I was talking to Kyle about all this and that next week or so... whenever I was feeling up to going out for a whole day... he planned a "all about Katy day" it was a wonderful day we walked around gardens went mini golfing, the parade of homes ( I love looking at homes)... We didn't talk about the adoption process we just focused on me that was the rule...
It was the best day I was so happy I was able to see that  I wasn't always going to have a dark cloud over me and that my life just needed balance a place for my future but also a place for my past!

I love Bryce and I always will but I am happy to say I am happy and I am proud to say I am a birthmom!
Its okay to be happy I know Bryce would want me to be happy... I know that he is happy and that make everything all worth it!

You're Better then you think you are

Along time ago a good friend bought me this book.

 At the time I refused to read it because I was so set on hating myself, as silly as that sounds...

well I finally read it a few years ago...  I love it! 

" We all face responsibilities that seem overwhelming at times, We all have recurring feelings of falling short of our desire to do better. And we all have ample evidence that we are far from perfect."

Isn't that the truth!

When I was going through my tough times I striveed for perfection,

I wanted to be perfect because after a few months of being told you didn't do that right or hit for not loading the dishes right or folding the towels the right way... I felt I had to be perfect in order for anyone to love me! 

I was so wrong and I wish I would have seen how wrong I was. Now I see that it is our imperfections that makes us who we are. No one is perfect if we were then how boning would life be.

In this book it  gives a quote by Elder Neal A. Maxwell-

"the first thing to be said of this feeling of inadequacy is that it is normal"

We are not alone in feeling like this i am sure your friends and family all have felt that they can be better...

How ever it gives advice on how to change this...

So here is my challenge for the weekend, Write a not to someone you love... At the end of this note the end of this note  write "you're better than you think you are"

Let us all focus on the things you have done instead of what you haven't focus on the things you have improved on instead of the things you haven't focus on on what good you have in you rather then what bad you think you have.

Lets us all remember, 

We are better than we think we are!

Sincerely, KatyDid

Horton Knows Best

In my sons bedroom I hung as sign it has one of my favorite quotes on it,

"A persons, a person no matter how small" - Dr. Suess

When I had to tell the Birth Father I was expecting I hadn't talk to him in 5 Months I was so terrified. I wrote a letter. Took it to my old work and had a wonderful friend take it in to him. He refused to come out and see me... but he sent a text saying "you should have had it taken care of"

I was so upset over this statement it wasn't Bryce's fault I had made the wrong choice,

Bryce was a sweet innocent child of our heavenly father why should he have to suffer for my mistakes.

If you are expecting and you are thinking about abortion please allow me to plea with you to take a different route... I know how scary it is to find out you are pregnant at a young age and alone. But I can promise you if you chose abortion it will always weigh on your mind you will have a pain that can never be filled.

adoption brings happiness it is hard it is painful but you will be able to have the reassuring knowledge that your child has a life that is full of love, hope, joy, and happiness.

Know that you are not alone in this journey their are so many who can help you!

Always Remember

"A persons, A person no matter how small"

I love Adoption!